3:46p - *Taps on the screen*
Hello? Anybody out there? Riiiggghhhttt...Thought I'd get off my lazy ass and post something, though today has been totally uneventful except for this damn headache that I can't get rid of. Typical Monday. I don't know, maybe I'll spend the night in the studio or something. Why is it that no one has parties on Monday nights? Seems to me that's when we would need them the most...

current mood: confused
current music: Anthem

 

4:45p - *Huddles in a corner*  
It's one of those freak storms that comes out of nowhere, and we're being hammered. It would probably be alright if the wind would stop, but it's just getting uglier out. Thunder, lightening, pelting rain, gail winds...Okay, so you know I'm glued to the open window in my room because the balcony's a mess. My checklist has been thrown out for the day because I am not heading up to the studio in that mess. Mark blew me off when I told him ealier that it smelled like rain. Of course, there wasn't a cloud in the sky at the time. Guess I can tell a storm like I can tell a good song.

Well wishes go out to Benji Madden who says he's pretty much in a bad mood for the day. Hope things look brighter tomorrow. *Wrinkles his nose at the storm and goes in search of pain killers for the headache from hell that still hasn't gone away.*

current mood: contemplative
current music: Complicated - Good Charlotte

 

 

6:49a - Fucking truck....  
I'd like to know which one decided to run me over last night. Not litterally of course, but since when do I go to bed at 6? Then again, I think I was getting pretty screwed up there at the end, all the pills for my headache from hell, and then I realized I hadn't slept in two days. Makes sense now that I look back on it....explains me halucentating too...Hmmm.

Have to thank Chester Bennington for putting up with me yesterday. He's cool though, had a blast talking with him about whatever came up. Sad that I can't remember half of it now, but it serves me right for chatting while slightly doped up.

Looks like the sun is going to be out today, so I might just be able to get in that studio trip that I wanted to do yesterday. Yes, I'm a wuss, didn't want to go out in the storm. We have the right to be Diva's at times, don't we?

current mood: awake
current music: Tomorrow

 

6:30p - Alright...  
Update...update...right...Okay, so I did make it out to the studio, but I just screwed around with some old ideas and didn't get much done. So is the story of my life. I took a bit of a walk today too just to clear my head from all the shit going around. I can safely say though that even through all the fucking fog, I've been able to talk and help out a few people today without looking like a total idiot. Gets tiring after a while, ya know?

Alright, for you die-hards that came out to the show last Friday in Atlanta, I thank you muchly. We hadn't done a show in like three weeks, so it was nice to get up and get out again. There are new tour dates though, and I'll add those down at the end when I decide to practice my HTML skills again. Here's a big surprise, we're working on another album! That's why we haven't been playing for the past three weeks, but there will be more on that when I decide the time is right. All I can say right now is that it's going to sound more like our first album...Whether that's a good thing or not, I have yet to decide.

I've come to the conclusion that I have no social life besides the people next door anymore. Maybe one of these days I'll get out of it. Oh yeah, what I consider a social life is away from computers and shit. I like to go to parties and stuff, but I've been too wrapped up lately.

Looks like another storm is coming in, so I'm going to close this out. I know my updates suck ass right now, but what am I supposed to say when I am the most boring person on Earth? Alright, anyway, tourdates...

June 19, 2003 Providence, RI @Lupo's
June 20, 2003 Portsmouth, NH @Hampton Beach Casino Ballroom
June 30, 2003 Allentown, PA @Crocodile Rock
July 1, 2003 New York, NY @CBGB's
July 3, 2003 Dewey Beach, DE @Bottle & Cork
July 4, 2003 Washington, DC @930 Club

I'll see you on the road!

current mood: amused
current music: Like a Stone - Audioslave

 

 

9:15p - Hello, hello...  
What to say tonight...I cleaned the fucking house. Sounds like loads of fun, right? No, I didn't think so. I kinda ranted about it, swore at my laundry a couple thousand times and still didn't get it done. I'm a fucking mess, I admit it. What's really sad is that I couldn't tear myself away long enough to go yell like I usually do. There, that accounts for the ranting for Anger Management. Don't like it, deal with it!

God, I wish something interesting would actually happen one of these days, to make me believe even partially that I have some sort of life. But since I don't have a life right now, I talked with a good selection of people today, whether or not they really wanted to talk to me, I never know. As usual, Chester Bennington, I hope things get a hell of a lot better for you. You want another song? Try Hello, Hello...Might speak to you.

Tarja T., it's always a pleasure, as I'm sure you know by now. I may have to come crash your house, just to show you what I'm *really* like. Naw, I'm kidding...I'm not that mean. ;D

And to Sandra Bullock, yes you did get me on my best behavior, congrats. Don't know how often you'll see it, but on the rare occasion I do act half decently.

I don't have anything else to annoy you poor people with, so I'm quiting while I'm ahead...

current mood: amused
current music: Hello Hello - Me...duh...

 

 

10:49p - Life sucks...  
At the prodding of a couple friends and my insistent headaches (among other things...), I finally had to call in a specialist. I fucking hate doctors, but with the shows coming up, I thought it would be better to get it out of the way before something really decided to go wrong. He said I was pinching a nerve in my neck, and that was the reason for the headaches. His solution for this is a neck brace that I have to wear at night at least, and in the day if I can put up with it. Like I'm really going to wear this big yellow foam thing out in public? We'll have to see.

He also told me that I'm to lay off the booze until whatever is screwing with my stomach decides to go away. I'm not showing symptoms of anything major, but he says he's trying to save me from 'whatever is in lurk.' Thankfully, this is only a temporary thing until I start feeling better. Of course, he's given me a few things to pour down my throat in the mean time.

Some friends stopped by today, which was cool of course. No one that you guys would know about, but we got to have a good chat before they had to head out again. Sometimes you just can't really tell how fucking alone you are until you're to the point of waiting eagerly for people to come visit. I'm beginning to think that I really need to get back on the road, only for the sake that I will be around my friends again. Not to say that I haven't met a great deal here, it's just something about touring.

I hate the fact that I still can't really offer a huge update. One of these days I'll be able to just go on and on until I pass out, but until then you'll just have to put up with my short and really campy posts. That's what it's about, isn't it?

current mood: drained
current music: They All Fall Down

 

 

2:14p  
Hello Hello

"Hello Hello
I bring you letters from the man you used to know
Give in let go
To the words that made you feel you weren't alone
Now it's funny how we find out
Time can solve the mystery but love is only temporary
Hello Hello
The smile on your face is just
For show
Inside you screaming let me go
Hello Hello
Loneliness doesn't make a sound
Till I heaad back underground
Hello Hello
I bring you letters from the man you used to know
Give in let go
To the images that made you feel at home
Now it's funny how we find out
How age can change a man
Confused but now I understand
Hello Hello
You're swimming faster than you know
But you can't fight the undertow
Hello Hello
Loneliness doesn't make a sound
Till I head back underground
Hello Hello
The smile on your face is just for show
Inside me you're screaming let me go
Hello Hello
You're swimming faster than you know
But you can't fight the undertow
Hello Hello
Maybe I'll Just say goodbye..."

current mood: indescribable
current music: They All Fall Down